Hope and Hopelessness

He is on the periphory

Always on the lookoutfor a way in

Looking for something to pick on

Something he can cling on to

And when he doesIts like he is glued there

He cannot be shaken off

And when finally his rival creeps in

She somehow loosens his grip

And pushes him back to the periphory

But her grip is not quite so strong

Wearied by the battle

Tossed and turned

And easily dragged away

And he latches on to the gap she has left

And he holds on and holds on

And its a long time before we see her again

She finds it hard to get back

She is afraid of falling off again

And every time she falls

Its a little harder to come back

And I miss her

And I hate him

Her name: Hope

His name: Hoplessness

A Heart's Cry

I stare at this blank page,
And wonder what I can say,
To express this sadness I feel,
But the words have all gone away.

I don't know what to do,
Nothing seems possible now,
I've tried and failed too much,
My mind's become tired of the row.

I know the right choices to make,
But the battle is always there,
I have no more fight left in me,
Its all I can do not to swear.

LEAVE ME ALONE.
I HATE YOU.

Mia

She blew out the candle and made herself boss
She removed the light and I'm feeling the loss
She messed up the image, turned it to moss
Now all is darkness

The candle smoulders, has hope returned?
It flickers a while, my stomach churns
But the flicker dies out and hope is spurned
Now all is darkness again.

Help

Help.
I don't know where to go
Its too much for me now
I'm at an all time low

There's nothing left to say
I don't know when or how
I can't see my way
Help.

Tired

These last few days Lord have been so hard.
I'm in a pit and my body is scarred.
My mind's in chaos, my life's a mess,
There's stuff inside that I just can't express.

I don't know what to do Lord, what to say.
How has my life turned out this way?
What's left to do Lord? Where do I turn?
I think of you and my stomach starts to churn.

I'm all out of hope Lord, there's nothing left.
I'm all out of fight. I'm tired and bereft.
I need you right now Lord to help me to stand,
And to let me stay here Lord, in the palm of your hand.

Tomorrow

I give you tomorrow.
I give you control.
I fully surrender.
I give you the whole.
I wont hold it back.
I wont try to prove.
I wont have an agenda.
I wont refuse to move.

Silence

In the silence of this space
I feel the tears run down my face.
I close my eyes against the dread
Of thoughts twirling inside my head.
I listen to my mind convulse
And feel the pain with every pulse
As quietly I break the skin
And let relief come floating in.
My thoughts are released in a flood
As I watch the flow of deep red blood.